Sunday, February 8, 2009

Zombie


i am doing this blog while at work and the reason behind it's because I am bored to death actually not really bored but I hate the people I am working with. I believe it has something to do with the way how they approach me and mind you everytime I do a certain task (parang si Big Brother lng hehehehehe) para akong ZOMBIE hahaaay...cguro ganito talaga pag mejo routinary na yung ginagawa mo and mejo nde ka naniniwala sa mga pinagagawa sau hehehehee :p so para naman matuwa na lng ako naisip ko anu kaya hitsura ko pag naging zombie ako?? cguro ganito hihihii :)

Moving out.....

I have been working in this company for four years and now I am at the point of looking for a niche that will challenge my abilities however I am afraid of leaving my comfort zone for this is the zone where I discover my full potential and put me on the place where I am right now and leaving this company will need a lot of courage and will take a lot of risks. Saying goodbye to this place its as if I am blindfolded and trying to gamble my way out.

I am having second thoughts of moving out but I am not happy where I am right now. Something deep within me would like to scream, yell and shout but will I ever be heard? I want to do something, something that will make me a worthy individual and will utilize my full potential but with what’s happening right now and the situation I’m into it’s like as if I’m trapped and helpless. You may ask why I feel this way it’s simply because I’m not empowered and even if I try to do things that is for the good of everybody it’s worthless because the people above me won’t buy it.

Now here I am confused, scared and full of anxiety for I have to make a decision that needs a lot of courage and once I place my bet I have to make sure that I am playing my cards very well since a lot of things are at stake. Leaving the place that you embraced for four years is a decision that is so hard to make however I need to grow so I have to try though it’s hard for me sooner or later I have to say goodbye.